What is it that runs life? Is it the so frequently blamed "fate"? Or, perhaps it is you. Yes, you, each individual that lives, eats, and breathes. Do you believe that every action you take, every thought.... changes the out come of whatever you do. For example: Person A is driving down road 1, and is looking to turn on to road 2, but, person B wants to turn onto road 1. Both drivers decide they should be first, resulting in a head on collision. Lets say person a waited, and let person B go a...

Well, Today we found out that my lower right lung is fine now. Apparently it has healed completely. My diaphragm is not paralyzed, but, it sits much higher than normal. (about half way between top and bottom of lung) I was prescribed a higher dose of advair. (500/50) Both doctors (at pulminary/lung area) said that i just need to continue what i have been doing, and within 4-5 months... i will be fine. They also said that once my weight is down, to 180 (from 288) that my sleep apnea wil...

Well, other than what was in the other blog... It was pouring down today, i mean really flipping pouring... Apparently their was 34 inches of rain in our area. Thankfully we are on a hill, so most of the water flows down... The Ronald McDonald House (RMDH) is quiet tonight, well, it is halloween...but i thought there would be more activity, last night they had a halloween party, they started playing hoe-down music. (IRK!) I scrammed downstairs and hid in the "Teen" room... a seco...

Well, today was a bit better. We woke up at 7:30 am. Got dressed and ready, and went out the door at 8. We had an apointment at 9:25, but we wanted to grab breakfast and get a lay of the surroundings. My first appointment was a pulminary function lab, were i did various tests to determine my lung capacity,etc... It went fairly quckley in terms of how long i felt it took... But, apparently it took an hour and a half... My next appointment was at 11:15 the specimen collection office (...

Hmmm, its nearly bed time.... And a couple things came to mind. Today, as we came up. We hit a stretch of highway (HWY 97) where it is straight, and this goes for miles... Well, today ("Conveniently"), there was a huge wind speed. We had gusts of 20+. (According to the weather guy on the radio, it felt worse...) Well, we were driving our van. Which, in the wind... Likes to dance. ALL over the road. It went here....and there..... My mum's trying to control the damned thing... While i am tr...

Oh no! It couldn't be! *gasps* IT IS! IT IS TRUE! My blog, my lowly, bile filled, whine-aholic blog is #13! Noooooooo!!!! It can't be right! How could mine be quickley rising, if it reaches the top ten *gasps* the end is near! *shudders* I have passed such golden bards as Texas Wahine, such proverbial master of the word, Little Whip. I bounded over wise 'ol Baker street, and Parated2k! Nooooo!!! Its the weather! Yeah! Thats it! *glances about, seeing that the sky is clear* Curses! *has an ide...

Oh no! It couldn't be! *gasps* IT IS! IT IS TRUE! My blog, my lowly, bile filled, whine-aholic blog is #13! Noooooooo!!!! It can't be right! How could mine be quickley rising, if it reaches the top ten *gasps* the end is near! *shudders* I have passed such golden bards as Texas Wahine, such proverbial master of the word, Little Whip. I bounded over wise 'ol Baker street, and Parated2k! Nooooo!!! Its the weather! Yeah! Thats it! *glances about, seeing that the sky is clear* Curses! *has an ide...

Right.....And could this day get any more fucked up? I sure as hell hope not. Hmmm, lets see, where do i start... First, we got up late, and left nearly two hours behind schedule. Secondly, Our van overheated and we had to stop for a while in Oakridge, where my mother suddenly got "paranoid", towards a hobo walking our way. (Not that it was a bad thing...) Next, we had multiple people cut us off, they were driving like maniacs out on I-5... We were just past salem, at a re...

Well, we leave for OHSU, up north today. We leave in the morning... Apparently some one thought it would be funny to place like 5 or 6 appointments (I didn't count all of them, i just groaned) on monday morning... Sooooo *grins sourly* I get to go from 8-12 on a dead run.. then from around 12:30 (or whenever i finish "lunch", to 6 o'clock, doing tests....Tuesday shouldn't be so bad... The tests are gonna suck, but, I am glad i'm getting them... cause I'm going to find out what *exactly...

Well, we leave for OHSU, up north today. We leave in the morning... Apparently some one thought it would be funny to place like 5 or 6 appointments (I didn't count all of them, i just groaned) on monday morning... Sooooo *grins sourly* I get to go from 8-12 on a dead run.. then from around 12:30 (or whenever i finish "lunch", to 6 o'clock, doing tests....Tuesday shouldn't be so bad... The tests are gonna suck, but, I am glad i'm getting them... cause I'm going to find out what *exactly...

Irk!? Ehh, this must be a bug, how could *my* blog be at #15.... I must've wrote a whine... No...I don't remember doing that...

Well, the test went smoothly... Woke up at 6 am... and i remember trying to wake up...i was in a deep flipping sleep...i was still aware of what was going on around me... but, was able to relax and rest... We shoud know what the results are in a couple weeks or so... Oh, and we leave on sunday around 10 am...

Laughter echoes behind my back, Pain courses through my veins, You show no regrets, (Memories) My only hiding place, Is inside my own head, Where darkness and hell reside, Keep away… Never liked you, Never loved you, Kept dealing, Kept bleeding inside… Dealt with beatings, Dealt with lying, Dealt with shying away from it all, Keep away… I don’t need your help, Or your spineless words, I’ll move on, on my own… Just keep away…

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